awakening
     


From the Editors



Joy dwells here…always. Often in deep disguise. Yet, if this is so, why is it not felt as a constant? Why do sadness, fear and misery seem so real if in truth Joy is always here?

None of it is real, only imagined so. By allowing the attention to be taken away into our thoughts and emotions about what we perceive to be real, reality is missed.

All that we experience is created out of God Essence…it is God Essence at any and every level of manifestation, and this God Essence is a scintillating Joy…a supreme, constant presence of infinite well being.

This is the truth yet we lose ourselves time and again in the many things that make us so very small and shuts us down. When too many things come at us from different directions, we don’t know how to control as we normally do, so the mind gives up in a state of confusion we all know to well – stress.

Yet, these many stressful things are simply different manifestations of this very same God Essence appearing in diverse guises before us.

As these things aren’t easily compartmentalised when coming together in such rapid succession, we lose control.

Ah, what a blessing!

Another reminder and opportunity to breathe in deeply and surrender back into the Joy in this moment, masquerading yet again as all these uncontrollable things in our lives right now.

Not long ago I was journeying through one such “Blessing-filled” day. The morning had been slowly gathering momentum as one situation after the next worsened and worsened with things just not going according to plan. The tension mounted in my body as I unconsciously ploughed through all that needed doing. Relieved to have finally reached the Post Office for the last errand of the day, I stepped out of the car in the blistering 40 degree heat with a bundle of mail under my arm but was immediately stopped in my tracks by a locked door.

Looking up at the opening hours sign, my mind scrambled trying to figure out what day it was, wondering if it could have been a Sunday...then I saw a “Back in 5 minutes” sign. So I waited.

5 minutes became 6…7…10. Standing in the sweltering heat my patience began to be severely tested as other customers came and went. 20 minutes had passed and still the door remained locked. Standing at the entrance, ready to give up and head back home, I suddenly became aware of a sign I’d been unconsciously gazing at in the shop
window next door. It read:
AIR
TENSIONS
HERE
Air tensions here? I wondered, what an odd statement to appear in a shop window. The strangeness of the message actually
served to wake me up, as I began to do as it instructed. Taking a deep breath in, I relaxed and allowed for the truth of the moment to be just what it was. “Be here, breathe…and all tensions will vanish” was my interpretation of the cryptic sign.

Now that I had finally moved back into the present moment, my mind came back in wondering about the logic of the words in the
window. Taking a few steps back I could now see the whole sign and realised I had been viewing only part of it from the angle I was facing (obscuring the first few letters). The complete message in the Hairdressers window actually read: Hair Extensions
Here!

Smiling and reflecting momentarily on the synchronicity I’d just encountered I turned around to see the post office clerk moving around inside. Opening up, she apologised explaining she had forgotten to unlock the door after coming back from the toilet.

So this is it, just as it is.

There’s no Heaven to hope to for or wait for or, even to die for. It’s here, always has been, always will be, waiting…simply waiting for us to relax and fall back into.

This life with all its many challenges grinds away at all the untruth in our minds, slowly refining the sands in the hourglass of our Souls – clarifying, purifying and deepening our appreciation of reality moment by moment. Are willing to see it?

Joy is here. The God Essence dances before us and within us always.

Closing the doors to my thinking
The Infinite is revealed.
No thought: Here it is.
Thought: Here it is.
My belly spins as a new doorway opens.
Here it is…here…here…here…
Letting go of these coloured balloons of
fancy is all it ever takes.
Simply let them go and you’ll see too that:
You have always been standing at the
Heart of Eternity.
The Ocean roars at your door – It’s calling.
One step is all it takes…
Simply close the first door…
And the second door always opens.

Make the most of each and every moment,
Leo and Enza




                                               
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